I
am
spending
so
many
days
feeling
guilty
for
who
I've
been
in
the
past
that
I
am
missing
out
on
days
slipping
by
right
now.
I
am
cashing
in
my
future,
and
that
of
my
most
loved
ones,
for
the
emptiness
of
what
has
been
done,
ended,
over.
(I just had to put that in writing to remind myself how utterly ridiculous it is for me to continue with this behaviour.)
