When You Ask, Life Delivers

This week has completely kicked my ass! And it is only Thursday! I am excited, though. As I become more aware of my behaviours (reactions and responses, if you will), I become more aware of the thoughts behind them. Every behaviour I have originates as a thought. I, and I alone, can control those! There is huge freedom in that! I feel like I've traveled a billion emotional miles this week already. But I am looking back and seeing what I learned and how I grew. With no feelings of guilt and failure.

I had an incredibly emotional conversation with a very difficult person and wanted to dissolve afterwards. But I looked at those feelings, found their originating thought, and felt a sense of safety, security and peace return. I completely EFFED up parenting, had a very honest discussion afterwards, followed my instincts instead of my anger, and watched a very stubborn offspring completely soften before my eyes. We both were able to walk away with no resentment or animosity. Had a great conversation with a dear friend where I was able to pinpoint the source of MONTHS of stress and frustration. Guess what? It was me. I handled a bad bike accident where my man-child broke a tooth and banged himself up pretty good. I wanted to revert to a comatose state and be angry that I am single parenting right now. Found that thought, managed it, found resolve - with only a little frustration that the man-child's absolutely perfect teeth will never be that way again. *sigh* There is more, but I will spare you ALL the details. Ha! ;p

Knowing what I've put out there and am asking of myself, seeing the opportunities as they regularly present themselves, not fearing or being angry that I am given chances to manifest change in my own life - it is truly a very beautiful thing. 

(This was a post I did on Facebook last week.  Thought I would post it here, too.  And am trying to make a mental switch to blogging here, instead of on Facebook.  There.  Now I've put it out there.)